A Mixed Bag

So, the time has come to present to the world a few of my inner friends - they came to me in a very special autumn a few years back. They all represent the fact that my own being is not a completely cohesive entity worthy of the name I carry in the world. Rather, I'm a bundle of processes, streams of wills and patterns whirling around in my personal mind and the fact that I feel as a single person is either an illusion or something of a miracle, a creation orchestrated from the divine realms of existence. This group of twelve I consider as governors of these mentioned processes. The processes themselves are likely all too numerable to be counted and categorized properly, but the twelve is distinct enough to me to be able to roughly take care of them all.  It's important to note that I, Simon Jester, isn't these beings. To believe such would be a symptom of desillusion disorder and even if this alchemic image below likely is inspired from my study of that disorder, the twelv...

  It’s been a while. I won’t dwell on why I have been absent from this project, but I just want it to be on the record that I absolutely love what I’ve been absorbed into instead and it is somewhat a pity that I can’t really show or talk about what that is in a public setting. Life is odd. The only sad thing with the redirection of my focus is that I had such an abundance of ideas for texts to be written, and an initial commitment to get them out before the summer became to strong too ignore, but alas - the ideas are still left unwritten and now I’m not too sure if I will care about them in the same way. We’ll see. * I’m back though in order to talk about a new group of… friends that have entered my consciousness and I like to present them here if only for my own future remembrance. These characters are an example of “spiritual creativity” and I realise it might be necessary for me to stress the “Kastrupian ambiguity” about this category of beings, as it is in this case. This group...

Something is structurally wrong with existence. "Wrong" might be an inappropriate term for what I'm trying to say below, but if we let feelings be feelings this is certainly how this particular emotion wishes to express itself.  Yes, please be aware that this will be a text coming a bit from the left side of the scope of this project. I may seem to contradict some of my other writings when expressing this particular thought and I just want to say that I'm aware of that possibility. Since this blog has multiple purposes this is destined to occur and this text will fall under the purpose of therapy writing and if the content coming out of me goes in contrast to the purpose of developing GoG , so be it. In that case it will be a problem for a future self. * I hate the fact that one can do everything in one's might, pour out one's soul and all of one's energy, indeed really, truly doing one's best and the result one get may still be absolutely abysmal, or ...

This is a resumé*, a CV , but a resumé that I don't care about sending out toward the employment world. Nay, this is my attempt to "tallify" my life in a way I myself care about and the reason I am making it public is to make it possible for people out there to be inspired to do the same. Don't care to much about my categories, structure up your own if you need to - but if life is a game, or a set of games, be aware of which ones you are participating in, which ones you are doing well in and which ones you want to improve or leave behind. To come closer to playing GoG in a decent fashion I would imagine this is a crucial step.  But since this is by its very nature quite close to the region of private stuff I will strive to write in code and the actual content below won't likely be very interesting.  Anyhow. *    Birds  Boats: 5 (L, V, Z, F, R) FB: 6 (V, Z, L, F, H, R) HR: 4 (V, Z, H, R) Ownership: 1 (2022) Locations and visits  Addresses: 7 (S, T, K1, K2, ...

So much has changed in such a radical fashion so unbelievably fast. I thought the threefold articles named "after a spiritual nuclear event" would be the hardest for me to write and that they would be the kick start I needed to get everything else going in this project, but no, everything has just been running smoothly as it is and the two first pieces of this mini-series just flushed through me like they were written by somebody other than myself. Ok. I am not doing this. All of this is happening through me by a faculty of existence I can only speculate what their nature might be consisting of. I'm happy that they're active - it's fun sitting by the computer smattering on the tangents as quickly and stringently as I might in this foreign language of the English but I'm not entirely sure what is going on.  Initially I thought this article would be a creative session consisting of me jamming out more or less unlikely things I'd like to do if the metaphysica...

I set up this blog post almost at the creation of the blog itself and I thought that I had to struggle rather much to conjure up things I believe in after such a long time where belief in anything except what my immediate perceptions told me was impossible. Turns out that was not the case, the return to my normal mind set has activated all my previous belief systems and I could quickly spit out text after text explaining their structures and meme content without too much hesitation involved. I believe in stuff, clearly - so this text will be an exercise in keeping it short and constraint rather than a struggle to find anything, anything at all to claim as my beliefs. For me, that's a relief.  * i like to begin by talking a bit about the concept of paradigms. A paradigm in this context is to be understood as a set of beliefs that form a cohesive whole. Everything within a paradigm fits together and you can take a paradigm as a given and by doing that you get the axioms and prem...